Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in the shy black orchid's LiveJournal:

Friday, February 20th, 2004
12:53 am	Don't Fear Me Because I'm Crazy everything worth living for is wrongmemories clog my mindthoughs are distortedwhat do i seethrough my eyes?just hearing the words of painuttered from your lipsthe worlds never been fairlifes just a hellish bitchfrom the day were bornto the day we dienothings fairno clue nothing to saywhat can we do? (Comment on this)
12:53 am	The stillness of the morning was broken The song of the birds ceased There was the crunch of marching boots Come to shut my mouth Cut my fingers of Silence my views No free thoughts for me Just conform to what they want No peace in the future land for me I have thoughts They are not allowed Might have been peaceful But not allowed my emotions Not allowed to make decisions for myself No violence or pain But no laughter and joy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
10:12 pm	Its my life, i aint going to live forever. i going to do things i want to, you cant beat me into submission no telling me what to do its my life i have an odd feeling things are going to be changeing (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 8th, 2004
12:04 am	where r u p spending time thinking knowing soemthings missing miss the smell the comfort and the warmth i missing him think it would be nice to see his smile to have him hold me i feel like part of me is missing i want the friendship i want the warmth and resurance something missing from me he shares my pain he shares my happiness i miss his face the touch and the care only gone for a day (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 6th, 2004
10:08 pm	why am i a psyco magent or are they just freaks do they know i am geek or do they try it all the time always on the train journey home they come to me give me something free food and drink computer program perfume and then they give me there address and say they love to meet me again am i freak magnet do i have something like victim on my head? (Comment on this)
5:44 pm	No sir your not always right No sir your not always wrong no sir my life aint going to hell in a hand basket no sir my life aint a walk in the park love and pain anger and joy violence and peace the right and the wrong a carnival of emotions a mixture of duties a carcophany devoid of spirit keep my dreams keep my fears i am caught in this shell of life i am in time, yet outside time i diselieve yet comprehend wisdom and intellengnce yet naive and gulliable sir i am tired of hearing the same damn lies i'm sorry you know i just dont want your lies and decit (Comment on this)